Am I really ready?
Today I had a doctor appointment and ultrasound check up. Kiharu is now weighing 6 LB 3 oz, everything looks fine. I'm at 37 weeks, due date- January 17th.......at least that's what the computer figures out, and that's what I have in mind. But after the doctor appointment, I'm a bit "lost" (losing focus), as Nori said.
Well, I'm 2 cm dilate, very thin (cervis)......hm......took me few explaination to remember what that really means. Well, bottom line---
Me: "baby is not coming soon yet, right?"
....he gave me a look of 'it could be, mom...'
Me: "seriously, not like within these 2-3 days, right? at least not before grandparents' arrival"
....he gave me a look of 'no one knows, can't predict.......'
Me: "no, not yet..." (I gave him back a look of 'please give me your crystal ball prediction....')
Doctor: "well......no one can really tell when your baby is ready, she is now consider full term anyway. But if I have to bet, she will be here sooner than your due date. Could be as soon as 5-10 days......"
.... I then gave him back a look of 'shock' & 'speechless'
Well, I know....why should I be shocked afterall, this isn't the first pregnancy. But But But..in my mind, I kept thinking I still have 3 weeks. Although like everyone said, Kiharu is the only who knows when she is ready.
So after the doctor appointment, my mind just kept running......
- got to go grocery tomorrow and stock up more food....
- what else I need to pack for my hospital bag and Yoshi's (in case)....
- got to clean up & organize the house more....
- got to pull out the infant car seat from basement......................................................
In fact, I'm not worry about the labor at all, I am more worry about little Yoshi, hoping to get things prepare & organize as much, so it will be easier for grandparents or whoever, if Kiharu arrives much sooner. Nori reassures me they will be fine, which I know they will, but it's just a mother instinct....
Well, after typing this blog for more than 5 mins, Nori said "u are typing a lot tonight...." "yeah...I just need to dump all my worries here on blog, so maybe I can sleep well tonight...."